My Heart Is The Worst Kind Of Weapon

I'm going to have to tell him. I like him and I can't stand it anymore. I need to get it off of my chest. I've been up all night thinking things through (while coughing my lungs out from this week long sore throat) and I've decided that he's the best for me. I can never be sad around him. All of my emptiness is full and all of my sadness is suddenly turned into joy.

No, I wasn't tired today, I was thinking. When I think, I look like I'm going to cry/scream at any second.

Also, I've decided that my life is slowly being stolen from me. It's not one person, it's multiple people that feed off of my energy and my hardwork and make it theirs. I hate it.


I hope all of my blogs don't sound this depressing...

Where Did I Go Right?

My friend Tony Marzullo is always the first one to help me sort out my problems. See right now, I'm tuck between two completely opposite people and I honestly don't know what to do. My heart goes both ways, but my head is leaning toward the most logical decision, which Tony helped me figure out.

I think I'm going to give my problems time to just fall into place and eventually the best thing for me will show itself. To be honest with myself, the only thing holding me back is the possible embarassment that could be brought upon me in my decision, evn though I know this is whats best for me.

Oh, and I love Adam G. Sevani :D

THE MOST EXCITING NEWS!

Stephenie Meyer posted pictures of the Cullens on her site. The Twilight movie Cullens that is. For the most part, I'm super happy, except for Jasper's hair. It could be a bit shorter and more tamed. Overall though, I love it. Especially dear old Robert Pattinson (aka. Edward Cullen)! (Click on the picture to view the whole thing, Jasper gets cut out)

Finally Another Update

So I have been abusing this thing a lot lately. I'm sorry. Oliver rehersal is almost everyday for me and I have so muc other stuff, like dance, piled on top of that. I've realized a lot of things recently that I should have realized a while ago before I got in too deep.

I now know that I have a low self seteem, but only when it comes to my body. I know that I'm skinny, but I'm so disproportionate. My boobs fit into a size 7 while the rest of my body is a size 3. I found this out while I was dress shopping today. Dress shopping for what, you might ask! FOR RING DANCE!

Yeah, Felipe asked me to go to ring dance with him. He's probably one of my favorite people and I've only known him for a short while. He makes me smile like no other and he's so retarded, but I love him!

One more thing today, I realized something that I promised myself that it would never happen. I really hate figuring these things out after I'm focused on something/someone completely different. I know that you probably have no clue what I'm talking about, but I really feel the need to say it in a vague way so that no one really knows. I haven't told anyone about my dilemma and I probably won't ever, just because this thing happens to me all the time.

But have a nice day. Adam G. Stevani (MOOSE!) is my new favorite person ever. See Step Up 2 and you will know.