I Wish I Had A Kung Fu Grip...

I think I finally have life figured out. It's kind of suprising that I'm only 15 and I already know my place in the world and who I am for real.

I'm a girl that can't be described in any amount or words or sentances. I can only be known by you knowing me. First impressions of me can be tough. I come off as arrogant, but it's to cover my vunerable interior. If I look and feel confident, then maybe one day I can be confident.

Also, the true way to happiness is through your friends. Lately, I've had full weekends with a lot of hanging out with my friends. It's made me truley a lot happier. Even if it's only something simple like me going to Torrey's house for a while after school or even just seeing someone coincidentaly at the mall, it makes me feel good.

Recent Obsessions

I've had recent obsessions that I've just discovered this weekend. It's kind of wonderful because I think they're healthy obsessions (or at least one is, the other is debatable) that have made me realize a lot of different things.

Obsession #1:
South Park.
I've always been fond of South Park and it's completely random contraversial antics, but I've never watched it religiously. Just this week, I've been watching just about every episode of South Park online. My favorite character is Clyde Donovan because he's just the shit in general.


Obsession #2:
The Truth Box.
It's an applicaiton on Myspace. Le gasp! Myspace and applications? Is this like Facebook? No, it's way better. I only go this one today, but people have already sent in so many secrets to me. They range from "You're gorgeous." to "Your name is Rachel" and "Your friends are your FRIENDS, not your FANS."

That one about the friends really go me to thinking. Maybe I should be a little more concerned about other people. I admit, I'm extremely vain sometimes and the only people who ever recieve compliments from me are my bestfriends. I think I'm going to start giving random people compliments. I'll start with one a day and work my way up.

I'm feeling nice lately :D

I Died A Little And Went To Heaven

I saw this at actinginfo.blogspot.com and I pretty much pulled a Torrey and squealed my lungs out at 10 am. I think my mom was awake, but I'm pretty sure I woke up my sister. This is what it said.

"It is highly likely that plans for Camp Rock 2 will get underway immediately following the release of Camp Rock on June 20. I will be posting the auditions and casting information the minute I receive it, so check back for details."

IT'S THE DREAM OF MY LIFE TO WORK WITH THE JONAS BROTHERS! Either through singing or through ACTING now!

Also, I'm thinking of auditioning for Evita at the community college. I mean, of course I can't be Evita. It's too big of a role for a fifteen year old to play, but maybe I could be Peron's mistress. It's a small role, but at least I'll get to sing and it'll get me out there for other roles in the future.

I'm extremely excited for the summer now.
Let's take a look at my scheduale so far:

May 17- Audititon for Evita
June 20- CAMPR ROCK PREMIRE! and possible auditions for Camp Rock 2 :D
July 24- Hang at Hershey Park with three of my bestfriends in an RV
July 25- JONAS BROTHERS 11th ROW, NICK'S SIDE SAY WHAT?!
First week in August- SURFING IN NC!

And somewhere in there I'm going to Hershey again with the family and then Ocean City.

New York Adventures

New York is by far my favorite place in the whole entire world. It's dirty, it's busy, it's hectic and I love it. Broadway is where I want to be in the future. It's absolutely the most energetic place ever.

First, Torrey and I went to the Ellen's Stardust Diner. Ther waitstaff sings while you eat. It was amazing. There was this one girl who sang The Phantom Of The Opera and I was wondering why the hell she wasnt' on Broadway already, it was great. I had a chocolate coke and fish and chips, while Torrey took a risk in getting grilled cheese. Yeah, nice risk Torr.

Then we hung around Time's Square and went to Vigin Records, where I made many-a Jonas Brother's joke. Including my personal favorite "The Virgin store? Do they sell the Jonas Brothers here?" and "What are Sex Dominos doing in a Vigin store?"

Then the last and most amazing part of my day. The 8 o' clock Hairspray show. Not oly is this my favorite musical and movie, but I had never seen it live before. This was amazing. Our seats were elevated and kind of far, but I didn't care. I sat in my seat and danced and sang along. Our group was such a bunch of Marylanders too. ESSEX COMMUNITY COLLEGE! WOO!

No words could describe how amazing the trip was. I'm not even going to start on Torrey and I's tired conversations. I'll leave that to you imagination.

50 Things

1. I think that I will never have a boyfriend. My head is to stuck on me possibly dating celebrities and fictional characters. (like Joe Jonas and Edward Cullen)

2. Singing, acting, and dancing are the only three things I want to do in life. If I end up stuck in an office about 10 years from now, I might go insane.

3. My right shoulder constantly cracks. It has been for about a year now. I want to get it checked out.

4. I hate pick up lines. Please go back and try again.

5. You don't say no to Nick Jonas.

6. Carly says that I have two babies with Kevin Jonas and another one on the way. What will Joe think?! SCANDELOUS!

7. I had the craziest and most vivid dream last night. Torrey and I were in the school auditoruim dancing around on the stage (like always) when I heard that Mr. Bourne has row 5 tickets to the Jonas Brothers concert. (Why Mr. Bourne, I have no idea) So we go into the music hallway to find him. Out of the band room comes out the Jonas Brothers. For some reason the whole hallway is lit in a blacklight and the boys are wearing white suits. So it looks really cool. I start blushing my face off. I ask Joe "Do you know where Mr. Bourne is?" and he answers me saying "Yeah, he's in the Chorus room." I say bye and all of the boys say bye back. I woke up this morning to my burning cheeks. I was ACTUALLY blushing.

8. As you can tell by the last thing, I have crazy dreams.

9. I intend to be in a Disney Channel Origanal movie co-starring with the Jonas Brothers. Some way, some how.

10. My all time favorite song in the history of ever is Chicago Is So Two Years Ago by Fall Out Boy. It never gets old.

11. My top favorite movies are mostly horror. Some people think I'm wierd because I can handle a little gore.

12. I'm not sure who my favorite Jonas Brother is. If anyone asked me now, it would be Kevin, but ask me any other time and I would have to say Joe.

13. I can't have a conversation with anyone without bringing up the Jonas Brothers, either in my head or outloud

14. My mom pressures me to be the best, I hate it. She thinks I'm something that I'm truely not. Mom, please learn that there are other people out there that are better than me.

15. I love money. I'm a greedy person and I'm not afraid to admit it.

16. I really want my Uncles baby blue Land Rover back. Instead I'm getting a black Grand Cherokee.

17. I write stories because I can create the life I always wanted in them.

18. For some reason, the past few days, I've found myself watching Japanese Game shows and indulging in mashed potatoes. Why? I have no idea.

19. I enjoy going to Rita's with Torrey afterschool. It's an adventure.

20. I always seem to fall for the wrong guy. It's usually personality wise, but sometimes I fall for a guy that likes someone else. It's unfortunate for me. I've spent most of my time in life crying over dumb stuff.

21. One of my favorte things to do is RP. It's pretty much my guilty pleasure. I play Angela Weber on a Twilight RP site.

22. I think I'm going to stop this at 25.

23. Actually, my guilty pleasure is listening to "I Can't Wait To See You Again" by Miley Cyrus and jumping around my room. I hate Miley as a person and a singer, but that bass line is so catchy!

24. I'm not that girly. I hate wearing dresses, but I love getting my hair done.

25. I'm ending this now. I might add more later.

Stolen from both Torrey and Carly

I want people to know what I think about them. Truely and honestly.

1. My bestfriend, my sanity. I cried when you left for France and I can't wait to see you back home on the 9th. I can talk to you forever about absolutely nothing, but yet we still talk. You're my wife and I love you so much and with all of my heart.

2. Wow, we always talk about the Jonas Brothers. It's either that, or dance, but your antics keep me laughing. I love you so much and we'vve been getting so close recently. Right now I have the urge to flap around my house, but my mom doesn't like the taps on the floors. The icyhot just ran out too. DAYUMM!

3. You take my shit all the time. I constanly insult you, but you know I do it jokingly. You're one of my bestfriends. Secretly, I'm jealous of you. You have the perfect boyfriend and not a care in the world. You're gorgeously pale and you have a bady to kill. I love every second I'm around you.

4. You are an amazing girl, but you aren't as great as you think. You're sometimes hypocritical and you sometimes blow me off for other things, but overall I love you. Lately, you've been turning to me for everything and I love this feeling of being needed by you. You're another one of my bestfriends.

5. You are my Filipino super-buddy. I love you so much. We are totally going to be together as friends forever, you're my manager, remember. Don't worry, I'll hook you up with a hottie or two :D

6. You are an amazing guy. I honestly don't know what I would ever do without you. You are the only guy I can honestly say that I love. I've liked you before and you know that, but when things didn't work out, you still stayed by my side. You know whenever I'm about to cry and you'll always be there for me. I love you.

7. You are an amazing little dancer and singer. I liked you at one point and so many people made fun of it. Only the boy #6 didn't make fun of me. He pushed me to tell you. I've never told you though. I think we're at a good place now. I love every minute I'm with you and I secretly hope you'll have a growth spurt during the summer because maybe then I'll tell you about my secret crush.

8. You've been a bit fake lately, but I still love you though. I'm hoping it's a faze. You're my bestfriends sister and you're purely amazing. We have crazy times and can fit Twilight in almost every movie/conversation.

9. I knew you in middle school and you always seem to make me laugh. We haven't been hanging out as much as we used to lately, but you're still a great friend to me. I remember last year, when we tried to make a song with every word that rhymed with "sheezy". Oh fo sho :D

10. You are so hot and you don't even realize it. You look like the lead singer in one of my favorite bands and you know because I told you. Most of our conversations are online and it kind of pisses me off. I wish you would talk to me more in school, but you're always around your guy friends.

11. I'm married to you. You currently have a string on your finger because we want to prove if "The Count Of Monte Cristo" is right in saying that a string can stay on someones finger for 13 years. I still think it can.

12. You used to be my number one guy. I liked you for the longest time, until I found out you were an asshole. Thanks for not talking to me, it made me realize that you're the same ass that everyone says you are.

13. You liked me, but I liked the asshole in #12. I told you I needed time to think, but now I hear you're immature. You stopped talking to me. I can deal with that. I don't care.

14. I make fun of your smarts all the time, while really I envy you. I wish I could have organization and work habits like you do. You're an amazing person and I know you'll always push me to do my best.

15. You used to be a good friend to me, until you got extremely annoying. You aren't a good singer and you show no effort in dance. It kind of pisses me off when you rub it in everyone's face that there is a rumor going around that you might of had sex with my bestfriends ex. So stop singing and shut your mouth.

16. You used to be a good friend to me, but then I heard things that you were saying about my bestfriend. I'm nice to you now because I like to be nice to everyone.

17. Lately we've been getting along. During Grease I had a sort of hatered for you, but it was mostly jealousy. Atleast when you're on caffinee pills you're nice to me.

18. Girl, you are the ultimate broadway kid. You sing the beginning of the Circle Of Life like a mad woman and you breakout in the random song. You will be the only one I consider as competition when I'm auditioning for shows now.

19. I heard about what you said about #18 and now I really don't trust you as much anymore. You're still a nice person, to me at least, but now I'm hesitant.

20. You're famous and you will probably never read this in your life. You are honestly the only guy I go numb for when I hear you sing. I see your face in my head whenever I'm daydreaming in class. I feel so retarded when I admit to all of the wierd stuff I pretend to do. I make up conversations in my head about when I'll first meet you.

21. You're famous too. Infact, you're the brother of #20. You're the hottest out of all of them, but the most unappreciated. Guess what, I appreciate you. That's all that matters. Date me in like 3 years, okay? HAHA

I MIGHT ADD TO THIS AS TIME GOES ON!
Right now I don't have anyone else I can think of.

If Anything, You're The Unsexy One

Seriously, what the fuck? Kevin is probably the hottest and most adorable out of all of the Jonas Brothers and he makes the 100 UNSEXIEST PEOPLE LIST?! I want to know whoever ran this article because it's really pissing me off and I might just have to send tons of hatemail. I do enjoy a good hatemail.

This is going to be an angry rant blog, so beware.

My day was wonderful until I saw this in a Jonas Fansite bulliten. I almost fucking cried when I read it. I mean, I'm a huge Joe fan, don't get me wrong, but Kevin is way hotter than him in a more mature sexy kind of way. His adorable Elvis-like style makes me want to wear white pants and white boots an dance around while playing my guitar.

While Kevin may not sing, it doesn't mean he's untalented. That boy can play lead guitar like no one's business. Though he may not be the next Slash or Carlos Santana, he as energy like no other and all the talent in the world to back it up.

People honestly need to grow up and begin respecting others. I understand tabloids have their "TOP 100 SEXIEST STARS!", but please don't put up a "100 UNSEXIEST PEOPLE" list. It's just completely immature and makes the papers sound like high school gossip sections. I'm sick of all of this celebrity nonsense and people putting others down.

IF YOU THINK KEVIN IS FUCKING UGLY! KEEP IT TO YOUR OWN UNDEVEPLOED BRAIN!
I'M NOT TAKING ANYONE'S SHIT! HE'S FUCKING SEXY :D