Where Did I Go Right?

My friend Tony Marzullo is always the first one to help me sort out my problems. See right now, I'm tuck between two completely opposite people and I honestly don't know what to do. My heart goes both ways, but my head is leaning toward the most logical decision, which Tony helped me figure out.

I think I'm going to give my problems time to just fall into place and eventually the best thing for me will show itself. To be honest with myself, the only thing holding me back is the possible embarassment that could be brought upon me in my decision, evn though I know this is whats best for me.

Oh, and I love Adam G. Sevani :D

THE MOST EXCITING NEWS!

Stephenie Meyer posted pictures of the Cullens on her site. The Twilight movie Cullens that is. For the most part, I'm super happy, except for Jasper's hair. It could be a bit shorter and more tamed. Overall though, I love it. Especially dear old Robert Pattinson (aka. Edward Cullen)! (Click on the picture to view the whole thing, Jasper gets cut out)

Finally Another Update

So I have been abusing this thing a lot lately. I'm sorry. Oliver rehersal is almost everyday for me and I have so muc other stuff, like dance, piled on top of that. I've realized a lot of things recently that I should have realized a while ago before I got in too deep.

I now know that I have a low self seteem, but only when it comes to my body. I know that I'm skinny, but I'm so disproportionate. My boobs fit into a size 7 while the rest of my body is a size 3. I found this out while I was dress shopping today. Dress shopping for what, you might ask! FOR RING DANCE!

Yeah, Felipe asked me to go to ring dance with him. He's probably one of my favorite people and I've only known him for a short while. He makes me smile like no other and he's so retarded, but I love him!

One more thing today, I realized something that I promised myself that it would never happen. I really hate figuring these things out after I'm focused on something/someone completely different. I know that you probably have no clue what I'm talking about, but I really feel the need to say it in a vague way so that no one really knows. I haven't told anyone about my dilemma and I probably won't ever, just because this thing happens to me all the time.

But have a nice day. Adam G. Stevani (MOOSE!) is my new favorite person ever. See Step Up 2 and you will know.

Giving Up? Not Really.

I think I'm just going to let life pass me by. My head is focused on so many things at one time, I can't handle it. My relationship situation hasn't changed for about 11 months and I don't think it's going to change anytime soon.

All I really need are my friends and my music and I have all of that. Whatever happens, happens I guess. I just wish things would've happened sooner. I haven't really wasted my time. I just used that time to realize that my life will never change and I was never ment to find anyone now. I can't say I'm not a bit upset, but I have to understand that I have bigger things to worry about.

My mind wanders. I'm sorry if this post was the least bit depressing/annoying. I still like him, I'll just let him decide what he wants by himself.

Monster M-80

Seriously, this stuff is amazing.
Completely random post...I know, but I just wanted everyone to know my love for Monster M-80.

Another Good Mood

This weekend went pretty well. On Friday, I was bored out of my mind, which was pretty typical. Saturday morning I was selling t-shirts at the Fallston Cup so that I could buy Tony his birthday present.

But oh, Saturday night was awesome. The first jazz band lock-in ever :] It started out slowly, just the band practicing until Mr. Briggs came up with and idea. He decided to let me sing with the band for Oh, Holy Night. I got up and nervously took the microphone. I flubbed up most of the words, but over all I think I did well. He's still not sure if he's going to let me sing it for the concert, but everyone thought it sounded good with the song.

But that wasn't the best part. I definitely feel as if I made a major connection with the guy I like. I'm only telling my friends exactly what happened, but I'm really feeling good about this guy. I feel like he's seen every side of me and if he still likes me even through all of the shit we had to put up with at the lock-in, then things are going to be good no matter what. Honestly, I could care less about the other girl he likes.

Sunday, I was dead tired and I had to sell t-shirts again. Frequent naps saved me from that. I saw Kristin and Liz at the games, so at least I had moments of companionship to wake me up. Also, the cold air shocked me awake too.

I hope your weekend went well too. :]

Finally Updating

Life is finally taking a turn for the better. There's this guy I really like, not the one I've mentioned in previous posts. It's a new guy. Honestly, I think something good is going to happen between us. I told him I liked him and he completely respects me for that and hearing that makes me the happiest person in the world, not to mention to most relieved.

So I'm going to have a fun filled weekend with this guy and I'm glad that no matter what happens between us, we'll still be really good friends. We've drifted apart since the musical has begun (and ended) and now we are really getting to know eachother through this week and I feel extremely good about things.

He's also really happy to see me in a good mood, because i haven't been in one for a hell of a long time.

Cross your fingers and hope for the best! :]